love makes you melt

Saturday, January 27, 2007

my life seems like a brush stroke of an artist, but i could be wrong. the artist finds inspiration and paints what he thinks it should be like. the artist that is painting my life finds it a chore. he finds no inspiration, no meaning and thinks it should have no regrets. however, he was wrong. he falls deep into concussion, thinking too much about how my life should be like. he wants to make it better but it is a difficult task.

what he drew was half complete, it was a big project that was going to take years to complete and hung. he wants to showcase this to the world but he finds that it was complicated and no one might understand it. even him, himself, is unable to decipher what he was painting. it was hard but he will persevere because he likes a little challenge.

right now, he is at the stage where he is running out of paint. he needs to buy paint but there is something hindering from doing that. he is running out of inspiration, he needs new ideas, he wants to make my life a cheerful and regret-less life, he wants my life to be full of rainbows, full of love and full of care. it is a slow and painful process but he is aiming to be a better artist each time he starts on the project.

he just needs a little push. he just needs what no other can give him. he needs the life to tell him what the life wants so that he can paint it for the world to see, for himself to know where he stand at the present moment that he is.

give him that push to start on a brand new art for the life.

emacity
2:01 AM

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Thursday, January 25, 2007

i see stars everyday. not because someone knocks me out, it's just because i am confused from the thoughts that i think.

i have taken a liking to caramel. thanks to the christmas different flavoured centred caramel and sher's chocolate filled caramel. haha.

oh. am's big day is around the corner! i am so happy for her, excited actually. i just wish her all the best and hope that it all turns out well. i got to be one of her closest persons on that big day and i am just so, well, elated to be that. i am just looking forward to the dinner. all dressed up and celebrating the joy of a couple's beginning to a new "life".

:))

emacity
10:56 PM

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Friday, January 19, 2007

you. yes, you. i still want you. you, smooth, brown, sweet little thing. i still need you. no one in the world can understand my desire for you. you are the best thing that can happen in my life. the one and only.

you, sweet, tasty, loving little thing. how else can i forget you when you are always around? when i opened, you were there. looking at me and thinking whether i would go to you. i have to stop dreaming of you, thinking of you and knowing that you are always there.

you little thing. why must you disappear now? where did you go? i miss you.

you... the dearest CHOCOLATE in my fridge. who had taken you away?

sigh. MY C-H-O-C-O-L-A-T-E...

you thief! owe me one!

emacity
12:59 AM

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Monday, January 15, 2007

ooohh. i cant wait for the holidays. i might be going to HONG KONG! yayness. let's see.. shopping? eateries? OMG. so fun! anyone wanna come along? i can ask my aunt to allow space for you. but tickets and expenses, you pay. hahaha!!

ooh. thanks SELWYN for introducing me MY GIRL. it was so touching. i think i cried like shit watching it. but of course, i laughed like shit too. makes me think too much about things i should not be thinking of.

it's over. zero. naught. end. thanks to that.

:)

emacity
10:25 AM

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Saturday, January 13, 2007

andddd... presenting... MELODY!!!

yeah yeah. i know it's an impromptu starting because of the inconsistent blogging method that is only presented in the one and only Melody's Dictionary. ok. that was pretty stupid. in fact, i think it is the worst starting in the whole entire blog entries that i have written.

let's see.
i bought my new organiser a few days back. it's super cute!
i still need a new notebook.
CNY is around the corner.
-> which means... SHOPPING PLEASE!
VALENTINE'S DAY is also around the corner.
(in case you wanna give me flowers, i LOVE roses, sunflowers and carnations. THANKS!)
-> which also means... MORE SHOPPING PLEASE!

oh. i just had my macroeconomics test today. i think i did pretty well cause i really studied for it and i think i made a tiny little mistake. OMG. shit. so wasted. but, hopefully, i'll still do well cause it accounts for 20% of the total mark.

thanks for distancing yourself. i sure hope you'll realise that it was just a thing that will only stay as that and the rest are history. no use crying over spilt milk. :)

emacity
3:06 AM

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Thursday, January 04, 2007

i feel like a robot. i can't move my neck. you know why? because i'm having sore throat and it affects the neck, i have this two lumps at the side of my neck and it's super painful so i can't turn my head too much.

oh. school has started. i was late yesterday and today. the reason yesterday was because i missed the STUPID bus. as you know, i have to change buses when i go to school and yesterday, when i was in the 1st bus, the 2nd bus was right in front of mine! so when i alighted, i was devastated. what a day to start the first day of the 2nd term of school. so i waited and waited and waited, then it was 1pm, which means, i was late and therefore, I TOOK THE BLOODY CAB TO SCHOOL WHICH COSTS ME $6.50!

today, I FELT SOOO SILLY OK!!
i was waiting for the 2nd bus at the bus stop and listening to my new ipod nano. then i got so into the song that i was listening and guess what? THE BUS WENT PASS! how silly can one get? OMG. i knew the bus driver was looking at me and driving slowly, but he was driving on the lane outside the bus lane. i just looked at him and for a split second, i did not know what to do. by the way, i was carrying my laptop. so i just stared at him and watch him pass by. AND AFTER HE PASSED BY, I CURSED MYSELF. LIKE WTH! YOU JUST MISSED THE BUS. THAT'S IT! then i waited for another 15 mins, if the next bus does not come, i am going to take the cab. GUESS WHAT? I TOOK THE BLOODY CAB AGAIN! THIS TIME IT COST ME $7. OMG. MELODY TANG!!!

yes right. yes. i need to get an organiser cause i think i have a very disorganised life. i also need to get a notebook to jot down any emotional obstacles or situations. yes. i am a very writey person. I LIKE WRITING OK! haha.

oh. i am watching globe trekker now on discovery travel and living and they are showing some civil war in west virginia. there was this one woman who studied a lot about the nurses helping out in the tents. she said that whenever a soldier got injured, take for example, his arm. the nurse would tie his arm tightly with a cloth so that the blood stops flowing. then she would let him smell something that would knock him out. firstly, she would use a sharp knife to cut round the arm so that the skin gets disconnected. secondly, she would use the knife again to go round a second time, this time, it was so cut off all the muscle in the arm. thirdly, she would use a saw to saw the bone off. fourthly, she would sew up whatever skin that is left of the soldier and lastly, be brought to the hospital.

how disgusting. amputating someone. eww. you know what? one in eight of the soldiers get amputated, either the arm or the leg.

this is so interesting. :)

emacity
7:22 PM

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