ooohhh. it was all in a frenzy. i did not give much thought about what i had posted previously. it was all just a little mistake that i had made. i may still be on the ride. but it is carrying me to places i have never been before. which may or may not be a good thing.
anyways, i just realised i have been blogging these few days which is good, right? i don't know man. so i would not keep blaming myself for not blogging and letting the blog be dead.
no, actually, the main reason why i am blogging so much is because i have got a new skin for the new year! and and i have upgraded my blogger account to the newer one. some goggle email thing. yeah. the font is sooooo NICE. so i just keep typing and typing. well, not literally keep typing, i do other stuffs too. like burp, talk online, trying to be sane, thinking of the financial situation that i am in, thinking of reading the magazine, thinking of whether i should invite my friends over to watch demand tv's - when a stranger calls. or just whether i should write my new year resolution that can NEVER be followed now.
haha. okok. maybe a bit too much information.
wishes come true.
Saturday, December 23, 2006
it was such a funny day. we were laughing our lungs out because we were talking about underwear. haha. about how old underwear expands twice its size and how loose it is and how we only wear it at home and how i only wear it to sleep and how it drops whenever we stand because it is too loose. i think we were the crazy ones on the street.
it was not as bad as i thought today would be. it turned out fine but i disappointed someone else.
i am so sorry. i will do anything to make it up to you. just name it.
i know i regretted not going to school that day to edit a project. i feel so guilty and so sick of myself and so disappointed in myself. i know i should just die. but dying at an age like me is not worth it.
sigh.
things happen and things change. not only do things change, people change too. every single breathing person out there. sometimes, they change so much, they are a different person. nonchalant about anything around them.
some things cannot happen and some things
SHOULD NEVER EVER EVER HAPPEN. EVER. i know i have been brought on a rollercoaster ride, leading me through the obstacles and creating a helluva trouble. sadly, no one understands. the rollercoaster ride still exist. i am still on it. it is like the Ride Of No Return. it is leading through the different emotions that i am tasting. i just need a STOP button. i need it to assure me that i am not following the ride like a blind fool. it is torturing and daunting.
how disappointing can it be? how much does it cost to buy some happy? tell me, please.
you are right.
i am only doing what i can.
emacity
1:20 AM
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Thursday, December 21, 2006
let's see. i can measure the amount of "screwed" in my life. i think it's a (counts) 101/100? yes! i am that screwed.
i have 4 things, no, 5 things to do tomorrow. it involves lots of travelling and time wasted.
i'm going for this sale thing. i know i sound super cheapo but hello, which singaporean is not? haha. then i have to go back to town and get some things done. one of them is to get a present for my aunt for another cousin. then i have to bring it back to my grandma's.
i know that there is this winter celebration thing and i have a dinner at my grandma's place. which is so stupid because i have dinners almost every week! all they do is sit around and start drinking. then my dad will get so drunk and i must say, it is totally HATEFUL. so dumb!
the dinner, at the same time, clashes with another event that i have to go. so it's like an either or thing. if i dont go for one, something will happen and vice versa. after that, i think i am going back to town again. so it all is so confusing. if i were to go for the dinner thing, i have to think of a reason to get out. maybe when everyone gets drunk and stupid. but if i did not go for the dinner and go for the other event instead, i have better chance of getting out.
OMG. that's for friday.
moving along. saturday.
i feel as if saturday is fully booked when in fact i only have a bbq at night. it could be maybe i have so many things going on on friday that it affects saturday.
ok. melody, get a hold of yourself.
next. sunday.
i have a x'mas lunch with my mum's family at a restaurant. we'll exchange presents. then after that i'll have to get busy thinking of whether to go for the x'mas celebration at night at my paternal's side. but it wont be fun because my favourite cousins would be in ITALY! OMG. they're such lucky people. haha. anyways, get back to topic at hand. yes. dinner. or whether i should go out with my friends. see. it's always family and friends that are at loggerheads.
which is why,
I AM SO SCREWED.
emacity
11:28 PM
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Tuesday, December 19, 2006
the rain makes me feel so sad.
it makes me feel so lonely.
with the right song playing,
it's downright torturous.
if someone were to come over to my place now,
i'll marry that someone.
with hot milos
snuggled up on the sofa
pure bliss
but, it's still sad.
emacity
2:13 PM
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out of ideas for a loved one's christmas present?
afraid of the weekend crowd?
cant think of the right gift for a friend?
budgeted?
too busy?
no worries. this website full of beanie bears is created to help those above!
emacity
2:54 AM
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Monday, December 18, 2006
OMG. I LOVE CHRISTMAS SO MUCH YOU WON'T KNOW HOW MUCH I LOVE IT!i bought loads of presents for my family and relatives on sunday. i wrapped them all until my back ached like shit. then i went to my grandma's house and continued wrapping some more. i think i can never finish wrapping all the presents. and xmas is just this week!!!!
OH. you know what. my dad bought me a xmas present. i was so shocked when he told me that. i am like are you sure anot. then he was like ya i buy already, it's in mama's house. then i am like this is the first time in 18 years that you are buying me a xmas present and surprising me with it. i am so happy i tell you.
he finally woke up and realised that he isnt buying his kids any xmas presents but buying others xmas presents. yes, i am jealous. it has always been the case from the previous years. when my bro and i asked for ours, we were shunned by him. like, it hurt our feelings ok.
but this year, it's gonna be different! yay!
emacity
7:03 PM
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Friday, December 08, 2006
SOMETIMES, I REALLY HATE BLOGGERit's when i finally blog
this thing happens.
so now i don't know
if the previous post was posted.
i don't care now,
whether is it posted or not.
emacity
12:17 AM
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right. ok. i shall stop promising that i'll blog regularly cause the fact is that i don't.
things that must be noted:
1. COMMON TESTS NEXT WEEK!
2. cand's walking @ zouk on fri
3. tanning @ rt's
4. ZOUKOUT!
5. study study study
6. pass sher what rt instructed me to pass
7. buy presents for x'mas
8. study study study
9. do something to my hair other than cutting it
yup. that's all i can think of and listed down.
:)
emacity
12:01 AM
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