Sunday, May 07, 2006
memories all alone in the moonlight..
i feel so touched seeing the ancient photos dearest sherlyn is sending me. they're so long ago and so so never seen before in a long time. i feel so sad all of a sudden. like i'm being reminded of the past, of being in secondary school and dreadfully awaiting the time to be awake.
the australia trip, teachers' day, just clowning around in school etc etc. it's all just a memory now. 5 yrs in secondary school had just gone by like that. if you take time to reminise on the past years, it can really be too much to bear. the scoldings, the punishments, the bullies, the project works, the class play and the school cleaners with their green and white uniform or is it green and orange, anyway, it can be really really overwhleming.
i miss school.
i miss the people.
i miss the bitching.
i miss the teachers.
i miss the food.
i miss the scoldings.
i miss my cca.
i miss procrastinating.(i still do that now anyways)
i miss the playfulness.
i miss everything.
how i wish i could go back, turn back time, teleport to another few years back.
but we all have to move on. get on with life..
however, memories will always remain..
emacity
2:49 AM
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Friday, May 05, 2006
i just dont understand why. why do i always have to end up in my grandmother's place every single day. all my things are at home and even my school work, my essential laptop and everything else. why do i always have to come here? i wanna go back.
but what would others say? they will say that i'm not filial to my grandmother and not filial to my parents and everyone else. if it is not that reason, they will say that there is nothing to eat at home and that i can get more nutritious food at my grandmother's place.
well, this is what you have to do. GET A LIFE!! we're no longer living in the ancient society where being filial is the utmost important. we should break free from all this structured rules and be the new generation of singaporeans. we should not be conservative anymore. where would we go? how far can we go? it's the end of the world if everyone were to be narrow minded.
on the flipside, there are people out there who are in need of someone. they are not independent enough to think for themselves. they need guidance and assistance but hey, i'm not gonna pity them. (i'm gonna link this back to where i started) they have to stand up for themselves, make a name for themselves. there is where entreprenuerial ability will arise. that is where creativity will surface. there is not much in the world for these people.
so i'm gonna conclude that i'm not gonna be like them. i wanna learn to be strong and be independent. i dont wanna be stuck in yester years where everything is boxed up. i wanna break free from all the controlling in the family. i wanna go far. i wanna go home..
emacity
7:30 PM
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