is was such a tiring day today. i was perspiring and sticky and hot. cant imagine how i'm able to go through the day. haha.
had poa mock after school. the paper was rather difficult. i'm afraid i'll not be able to get a good passing mark.
when i finished my paper, cand and i went to get ready for strathmore hse practice. i'm one of the selected participants to run 1500m. and 4 by 100m. i was up and ready to run. we had our warm up round which gets our adrenline pumping. aft the warm up, cand and i got ready to practice running 100m. i didnt do very well. i'm not suitable for running short distances.
i saw my brother at the field too. cand and i were encouraging him to try out 1500m for the 'c' division boys. i told ms chua that he can run rather well. so there we go, practicing our for our event. cand sat on the kurb and waited for us to complete running the 3 and 3/4 round. i think i didnt do well on this event too. stopped twice and walked instead of running. but wat surprised me was that the timing for the rounds that i had ran was 8.15 mins. i still think it is not good enough. who knows? there may be other better competitors frm the other houses.
all in all, everything was fantastic. waited for cand's mum to come fetch her and later went home with my brother. my muscles are aching now. haha. i think it is because i have not run for a very long time. say 2 weeks? haha.
anyways, gotta go..
Monday, February 14, 2005
date: 14 feb
time: go figure
event: valentine's day
haha. i'm getting weird. maybe it's the guy that i've been with for the past 1 mth and so.
i dont really express myself. at least not straight forward. i tend to beat ard the bush. sometimes, it may be annoying to talk to me cuz i'll not give u direct answers. i'll ponder for a while before answering. even though i think through before i say things, the things that i say can be rather senseless.
i dont know how friends can stay by me when i start whining. i'll really take up alot of their time and i find myself really irritating and i bet my friends think so too. i try to not whine so much when i'm having difficulties but usually it last rather long.
it's valentine's day today and thinking of my other friends who are out with their other half, i feel kinda lonely too. my little guy has to work and he'll be working till rather late and i dont want him to feel bad about not able to get any money if he doesnt work. well, i dont feel that a really expensive present is needed for valentine's day. although it happens only once in a year but we can treat everyday as valentine's day and not just concentrate on that one special day to be extra special. we can be special everyday. flowers are not only for valentine, it can be on any occasion at any time, whenever u feel like giving.
i'm feeling so sick now. i mean as in sick sick and not sick sick. get what i mean?
valentine. valentine. what's the big deal? dont tell me u only treat ur other half extra good on this day? dont tell me that it's the only day where flowers are accepted? i dont know about u but i think that everyday shld be as good as valentine's day. i dont mind not going to a fancy restaurant to have lunch or dinner. all i want is company and laughter and joy.
hmmm. finally, i can really write a proper blog and not those short and hurried ones.
suddenly i feel my chest tighten. it's getting harder to breathe. breathe. breathe. i remind myself. it's not something that i want. it just happens.
alrighty, gotta go.
toodles..
happy valentine's day!
emacity
7:19 PM
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Tuesday, February 08, 2005
i'm grasping for air. it feels like i'm being pulled into the grimly dungeon with nowhere to run. i'm facing a wall, yellow at first but it soon turned to red and thn to blue. it happens all in a flash. now the room is spinning. i staggered at first but i was able to cope with the changes soon after.
what had just happened? i'm back to the wall that is yellow again, with the occasional red. my chest suddenly feels tight. but when i breathe, it opens up. why is this happening to me?
the wall turns yellow again. this time it stays at yellow. what could this mean? am i back to myself again or am i still seeing things?
oh crap. just ignore what i type. wasnt feeling too good just now. was feeling like crap.
gotta go
emacity
8:54 PM
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finally found time to blog again. haha. been sooo busy lately. with the new year and stuffs. everyday is packed with activities. did i mentioned that before? i think i did rite? haha. cant remember.
anyway, i gotta zoom out.
happy chinese new year to all!
toodles!
emacity
8:07 PM
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Wednesday, February 02, 2005
i've change my blog skin. comments please!
anyway, today has been a sort of ok day. haha. my calfs were hurting like crazy. maybe it's because i played tennis with pikie ytd. and maybe it's because i've not played tennis for a very long time now.
didnt go for hse practice. told ms chua that i culdnt run cuz my clafs were really painful and that i'll run 2 weeks ltr. she told me, melody, it all counts on you and i was huh? cher dun like that say eh. haha. but luckily there's another girl running 1500m too. so i guess ms chua's gonna choose one of us. or maybe she'll just let the both of us run. haha. either way, i'm happy that i am finally a selected participant. haha. i'll be running 1500m and 4 by 100m together with candice.
so that's abt it. nothing much to blog actually. kinda like stuck. i'm like thinking, ok.. where do i start? anyways, i gotta go study for vocab test tml..
and guess what?... continue guessing. hahhahahaha..
toodles
emacity
8:46 PM
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