love makes you melt

Thursday, July 29, 2004

THE CHALET IS TML!!! haha.. i'm soooo excited. hee.. hmmm.. will be preparing all my thingies tml. yeah.. sherlyn's gonna be another yr older! sweet 16!! haha..

wenta sch. during recess, cand prepared her pressie. haha.. it was so funny. u shld hv seen it. oh yeah.. rem to hear cand's voicemail. it's sooo funny. so nice. guess who is in it! haha..

aft sch, wenta IMM's giant. gotta go buy some stuffs for the bbq during the chalet. instead of buying bbq thingies, we bought loads of tidbits. it's like the trolley's gonna overflow. haha.. so many! and i was like so afraid tat the amt we brought wasnt enuff, in the end, it was like 20 bucks cheaper thn the amt we brought there. i was soo relieved! haha..

yeah. aft tat, cand,sher,ang and matt took a cab to cand's hm while vince and i took the damn mrt. cuz only 4 peeps can fit into the cab. stupid.. it was a rather long journry back. didnt even tok to vince. it is only when he asked whr m i gonna drop and i thn i replied tiong bahru.

came hm, was sooo hungry. but b4 tat, i wenta bathe first. ate really fast. thn my uncle gave me a watch tat is too big for me and he's gonna fix the strap tml. i dun really like the watch. it's heavy and i dun like metal. prefer leather. saw one at swatch. it's has shimmery blue strap and face. very nice but it's like 109 bucks.. soo ex!! it'll take ages for me to save up tat amt!

gotta start onmy cme project. gotta hand in on mon and i'm not free during the weekends. gonna go for the chalet. have to try to finish by tonite. hopefully i can.. hee..
cya everyone!!

emacity
8:00 PM

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Monday, July 26, 2004

heya! being bored down here.. blogging.. gotta do research on developing and maintaining diplomatic relations.. B-O-R-I-N-G!!

yeah.. i'm suppose to do the powerpoint slides. but i dun have any info on the thingy..

gotta wait till my friends finished finished researching on it.

blog ltr!!

emacity
12:54 PM

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Sunday, July 25, 2004

it's such a boring day today. didnt do much. read the papers, did my accounts and eng again - like what i did last sun- and read e book i borrow frm orchard library. [behaving like adults by i forgot the author's name] quite a nice book. just started it and there's still many pages to go.

yeah.. went to my grandma's after that. ate dinner and went to tiong with me bro and dad. my bro went to cut his hair and i waited thn we went to cold storage. along the way, i played with my bro's n-gage [the sims]. but e batt was running low. so i saved e game and shopped in the supermarket.

nothing much. was kinda borin actually. i think i'm gonna change my layout again. it's a bit too girlish. and a little too 'love-y' kind.

ciaos..

emacity
9:34 PM

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Saturday, July 24, 2004

oopss.. sorry abt the previous entry. it was suppose to be for another layout. but i changed it again. heh..

now, is tis nicer? cute huh? i mean the pics.. haha.. the children r so cute!!

emacity
8:47 PM

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yay!! i changed my blog layout!!! is it nicer? hopefully it is!! took a rather long time to find this! it's sth like a girl trying to find herself frm the many complicated pics behind her. trying to find who she really is.

cute yeah? haha..

emacity
7:53 PM

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yeah.. u guessed it! went to sch today for me mock eng paper. was kinda ok. not tat diff or that easy.

my dad fetched me hm cuz it was slightly drizzling. haha.. he msged me and said "ah girl i will come n pick you in school". when i received and read it, i was like laughing. so funny. maybe u will think i'm nuts but it's like the first time my dad sent me a msg. haha.. lame.. kinda feel like a mountain tortoise. haha..

reached hm and i get changed. took quite some time and ltr my mum and i went to orchard to meet my grandma. we wenta eat xiao loong bao at paragon. was really nice. the juice was inside the translucent skin of the pork bun. yummy! thn aftwards, wenta taka to meet sel and john. sel showed me the pressie - harley davidson belt - he bought for his sis. was really nice. see la sel.. another wish to be fulfilled. john showed me the sleeveless-racerback-sorta shirt he bought frm quiksilver. kinda like a metrosexual. haha.. kiddin..

thn john left. sel and i went to wisma and sel bought a quiksilver slipper. he took rather long to decide and her finally choose one. thn we walked over to pacific plaza and look see look see. aft tat to borders. saw tis book tat was really nice. but i couldnt buy it cuz i was broke. i'm left with only 20 cents. poor me.. haha.. yeah.. so i went to orchard to borrow some books instead. aft tat, went hm and wenta swim.

that's bout it.. i've finally decided!!

emacity
6:59 PM

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Friday, July 23, 2004

yeah.. finally! blogging again aft so long. ok! i've decided! u go think what i've decided.. cuz i'm not telling. haha..

sch was fine. haf to stay back aft sch for chinese retest - failed the other time. n there's ss test oso. hopefully it's ok.. didnt go out today. not gonna go out tml too. gotta save all the "go outs" for sher's chalet!!! haha.. ang was sooo good to open it for her. so sweet. sher ah.. u r sooo lucky!! haha.. heard that it's gonna be at east coast frm the 6th august i think. somewhr ard there. yeah.. it's near the prelims but who cares? i gotta go for this chalet!! it's gonna be soooo fun.. but hopefully......... nothing weird happens or anything. cuz at almost every chalet, sth funny will happen and it will be the "THING" of the chalet. once u're back to sch, everyone will start talking bout that THING. haha.. get wat i mean? *winks*

prelims are sooo near. the first one is on the 12 of august and guess wat that subby is? you guessed it - chinese - boring. but on the very next day it's ss.. die.. sure die.. wat happens if i fail? will i fail my N lvls ss too? will it be diff? will it be easy? i'll nv noe till that very day when i open the booklet and start reading the qn and later start tearing my hair out. nah~ just kidding bout the hair thing. maybe i'll shave it all before the prelims. nah~ wrong again.. i'll just leave it.. kinda lame.. stupid sentence. gotta entertain myself. no choice.

talking bout stupid, it reminds me of mrs yeong. her favourite word. S-T-U-P-I-D. haha.. dumb.. yeah.. my bro's back.. so late.. i'm like so much earlier thn him. haha..

gotta go! ciaos and stay cool yeah?

emacity
3:55 PM

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Monday, July 19, 2004

didnt blog for quite a few days. i think 2. well.. things have been going on smoothly. on sat, went to cine and chilled there. seeing cand and matt and sher and ang, i just have to turn away. aft tat, went to eat at pasta mania. thn later went to kpool. the rest played there while i went hm. cant stay out too late. mum's complaining.

on sun, woke up rather late to me. did my accounts and eng. thn sth just made me wanna write a compo. it's abt this girl, jane, she lost her precious diary and it was later found in her mother's hands. she was very upset. eventually, she was sent for counselling and everything was better but the relationship between her mother and her could not be resolved. yeah, not much happened.

finally! today! went to school. didnt have any mood to do anything. felt rather left out today. maybe it's me. it usually revolves ard me. it's usually me tat find being left out. let's not talk abt it. dozed during class. didnt really sleep long. like abt 10 mins? yeah.. thn there was this talk in the hall abt controlling stress. it was quite informative. learnt a little sth frm there. the guy was really funny when he expressed himself and talked abt coping with it. i rem one phrase he emphasised "stress is just a FACT of life, it it not a WAY of life." aft tat, continued with lessons. thn aft tat, went hm.

my 2 NOISY couz came, they were sooo irritating. luckily, they didnt fight much today or else i think my blood will boil.

+i'mpositive+notgonnabeallsoft+
+stayawayfrommenow+moodswing+

emacity
7:59 PM

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Saturday, July 17, 2004

hey cool.. now u can change the font, size and the colour. yeah!! haha.. drinking chocolate milk as i blog. haha.. yummy..

when to sch today for eng mock exam paper 1. thn ltr for ss remedial. everything was running smoothly and tat's a good sign. gonna go out ltr. probably to town.

ytd's oral was like shit man. afraid i'll flung it. but my friend told me i got a 10 for reading and 10 for pic. it may not be true. so yeah.. hopefully i did well.

jia ming called me last nite and asked me for the format to writing a report. i didnt really noe e format so i juz told him maybe u shld write to the sender thn the subject line and ltr the text and sign off. haha.. thn he didnt wanna believe cuz i wasnt sure. aft tat, we started talking crap. he asked me abt my oral. there was tis one qn "if u culd go back to e past, who would u like to meet?" i told him yusof lshak. and guess what he told me he said? he said tat INDIAN man who is the first president of singapore. i was like bursting out laughing cuz e first president is not INDIAN, he's MALAY.

that was real funny. haha..

blog ltr if i can.. tell ya more.. haha.. gonna go prepare..

emacity
2:03 PM

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Thursday, July 15, 2004

ARRRGGGHHH!!!! i'm soo sooo nervous now.. although my oral is aft sch tml, i'm feeling nervous nowww... my knuckles r turning white and my hand is soooo cold.. like it just came out from the freezer.. haha.. tried to sleep juz now but i cant.. so here i m again.. haha..

AARRRRRGGGHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

emacity
8:19 PM

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i'm so so sooo sorry sherlyn!! accidentally scratched her nose this morning during pe. i was trying to catch the ball and i jumped up and my nails just scratched her nose and it was bleeding. quickly we went to the toilet adn she tried cleaning off the blood but to no avail. it's like OH NO!! haha.. well, she's now rudolph the red nose reindeer. haha..

yeah. school was fine! mr wan didnt come for his lesson today again!! haha. we had our free period.

aft sch, sher and cand went to the toilet. waited for them in class. they took sooo long, i went to the canteen with pikie,gary and sel. terence,john and aug was a table behind. didnt c aug. only saw terence and john. they walked towards us and terence stared at me so i just stared back n he walked on, followed aft was john, he jux walked pass and aug was next, i looked at him and he looked down. was shocked and i jumped thn i looked away.

aft tat, i went out of sch. was going to my grandma's. but i changed my mind and went back to school and jux stayed there. went hm abt 4 plus.

+dontthinki'llbegoingbacktobewithyou+ijustwannaconcentrateonmystudiesfirst+
+notbotheringaboutrelationshipsnow+bettertomakemorefriendsandjustbelikethat,getwhatimean?+
+hopefully+

emacity
5:27 PM

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Wednesday, July 14, 2004

well, not having a good day today, especially when i get hm. sigh.. school was fine today. love the last 2 periods of e day. mr wan was on a course and e class was on it's own.

aft sch, went to eat in e canteen. was so paiseh sitting on the sme table with him. didnt noe how to react. so i followed wat my couz said and acted normal. haha.. yeah.. and aft tat, went to the toilet. spend a great deal of time there.

was waiting for the bus and i saw sebastian, geryll, ruting, jaslin and amelia. and finally my bus came.

when i reached hm, i saw my other 2 couz and i was like shit man. y r they here? irritating! they just get on my nerves. reason y, they fight and i mean FIGHT over every small thing. even when bro A poke bro B, ah ha! they'll start and i'll have to end it. n now when i'm talking on the phone, he have to look at me, as if i owe him money. they're just sooooo irritating. got no mood to do anything.. sigh..

+areyouokaytoday?+idontthinki'llbegettingbackwithyou+we'rejustnotsupposetobe+youwontwantapersonlikeme+

emacity
7:02 PM

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Tuesday, July 13, 2004

went to school -as usual- today, i was really sleepy. slept a while during physics. but thn woke up again. pikie told me some stuffs and she told me to go back to think about it. i'm really grateful for having such good friends. dunno how i can live without them.

aft sch, sherlyn was really nervous abt her oral. hugged her and i dunno y, it became she carrying me. i was like put me down!! haha.. thn cand and sher made e chair thing and asked me to sit thn they carried me. funny.. aft tat, it was cand. wat's with carrying me? haha..

aft tat, sher went off. cand n i went to eat n thn we were told to go back up to do math. *bleah* so we did.

thn i followed john and sel to ikea. john was moving hse and he needs ideas to decorate his rm. was supposed to follow them to buy sch uniform too but i gotta phone call and i rushed hm.

my grandma was discharged. she was sleeping soundly when i came back. she looks alright to me. just when i was starting to write tis entry, my mum rushed in n asked me to follow her. so i did. she sounded panicky. thn wat shocked me was tat my grandma fell in the toilet!! i didnt noe wat to do. my auntie was there too but she was struggling with helping her up. thn my mum rushed to call my uncle. n 2 of them came. they pulled her up. at tat time, i was on e verge of crying.

e tots came back. it flashed thru my mind again. i was terrfied! tis time it happened in the nite and i got a phone call frm my auntie tat my grandma jus got admitted to the hospital again. everyone was waiting anxiously outside. thn came the news, we had to prepare for her funeral. everyone was sobbing. n i went to a corner and my tears just burst. thn e tots faded......

+didntreallyseeyoutoday+guessyou'realright+hopefullyyouare+

emacity
5:58 PM

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Monday, July 12, 2004

went to school today. was so surprised that i didnt sleep in class cuz i slept ard 2 plus ytd and normally i wuld be sleeping in class. but i didnt.

felt so empty today. firstly, the bug thing and secondly, my grandmother had just been admitted to the hospital ytd and i was quite shocked. heard frm my dad tat she suffered a stroke and will need to stay in the hospital for a couple of days. i was so worried. very very worried abt her. i was afraid tat sth wuld happen. very scared. thn tots flashed thru my mind and i saw her funeral and i started weeping. i was really worried. i've nv been so worried abt anyone b4. looks like my grandmother really done alot for me. thankies! -touched-

didnt noe how to face him in school. everything just happens so fast. i didnt noe wat to expect. he really looks shag. whenever i try to look at him and c how's he's doing, i will feel tears in my eyes and i'll hold them back and tell myself to be strong. have i made the right decision? i'm still confused.

aft tat, went to visit my grandmother. she's looks better now. more radiant. missed her sooo much. looks like my tots of the funeral is slowly fading away. it'll not happen so soon. at least not now.

+heartbroken+doubleblow+have i made e rite decision?+what m i thinking now?+confused mel+

cand- thankies for ur cheering up baby!! MuAcKiEs!!

sher- sweetie.. u're such a dear!! treat ang good eh.. MuAcKiEs!!

emacity
8:57 PM

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Sunday, July 11, 2004

i'm sooo bored.. juz finshed doing my eng and poa..

thankies for ur encouragement couz! u really make my day. :) hmmm.. now i just gotta do it slowly.. i'm sure i can. i'm not going to go back. i'm so not.

well.. yeah.. dunno wat else to say. gonna end here..

emacity
4:04 PM

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Saturday, July 10, 2004

went for ss remedial today. told him tat i wasnt going out with him. he was really pissed off. went hm to change and thn took a cab down to rocky at cine.

saw rebecca and corrine, my pri sch frenz. they said i changed a lot. did i? haha.. maybe to them i did.

thn we went to kbox and lepat! haha.. drank lion's good fren, tiger. thn msged him and yeah.. it's lidat..

aft tat, went to watch mean gals.. really funny.. at least it gets my mind off him. and a while aft the show, i went back. such a sad sad day.

+i'm positive abt wat i said+will nv turn back or be lured into ur 'trap' again+

emacity
11:43 PM

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Friday, July 09, 2004

hey.. didnt update.. sorry guyz.. hee.. hmmm.. didny have remedial as i tot there would be. went back hm, changed and went over to pit kun's hse. aft tat, wenta play pool downstairs.

went to orchard and managed to get a wallet!!! it's a black roxy one. really nice and just sooo cute!! haha.. thn aft tat, went over to *bucks. lepat there for a while and went to rocky to meet sel and cand.

jerine called me and i spotted her coming out of cine, i went up to her and she told me that her bro, jerald, was there as well with his gf and frens. i then msged him and asked him. aft 2 or 3 msges, he stopped replying so i assumed he was watching a movie.

in the meantime, we 3 lepat at rocky. moreles [dunno if it's spelt tat way] came and thn aloy. moreles was rather funny. very interesting guy. aloy was more of the get-serious-when-it's-time. but he can be downright funny too. moreles and sel make fun at me using the straw to drink. they said i have to lick the straw before drinking. i was like so pai seh. thn moreles demostrated on his drink but he was exaggerating. whoa...

me n sel thn went to the toilet, thn ltr me and cand. aft tat when sher and ang came to meet us, me and sel went to the toilet again. this time i spotted jerald. but when i walked pass him, he pretended to ignore me-i think. thn i forgotten his name too. i was like fumbling for words.

aft returing to rocky for a while, i went back hm. my uncles were asking me y i went hm so early? it's friday nite. as if i can go clubbing. haha..

yeah.. i like today.. it was real fun. gotta go for ss remedial tml too.. BoRiNg~

ciaoz..

emacity
11:13 PM

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Wednesday, July 07, 2004

boring is the word to describe my day. wat the hell. gotta stay back after sch bcuz of wai yeen. he didnt complete his accounts hmwk.

aft tat went to my grandma's hse to play pool. sigh.. so boring..

sigh.. sigh sigh.. yawn.. tired..

-guys do pms-it's just unpredictable-

emacity
10:45 PM

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Tuesday, July 06, 2004

is it me or wat? y is it tat tat gal keep bumping into me. and it's not accidentally either. if it's an accident, she'll apologise, but i think she did it on purpose. sigh...

hmmm.. during recess today, when everyone was getting out of class, i was standing near my friend's seat at the front and tis gal juz came and bumped me on the back. i'm not being a show off here, but i juz need to release wat i need to say.

i juz dun understand.. i really dont.. sigh..

aRgH!!!

emacity
6:04 PM

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Saturday, July 03, 2004

it's a saturday and what m i doing at hm?? apparently, i cant go out. not tat i cant, it's tat i went out ytd and i'm out until ard 10 plus which is late to my parents, so i have to stay hm today. they didnt tell me not to go out, it's just tat i have tis feeling tat i cant.

so here i m blogging. hmmm.. currently listening to hoobastank - the reason.

so bored. maybe i shld go do my hw ltr. oh dear..

yawn...

emacity
3:05 PM

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Thursday, July 01, 2004

there's this girl in my class that i'm not close to since the beginning of the year. we dont even talk. and today, during recess, i need to walk pass the corridor to the toilet to change to my school uniform after my pe lesson. i saw her walking towards me. she was walking quite some distance away. i didnt think she will do anything. because my friend called me from his class to say 'bye melody', i peeked through his class window and waved back. and after i turn back to continue walking, she came close to me and purposely bumped me - hard. i gasped and she just looked at me with her innocent eyes. i was soo shocked. this was not the first time she's bumping me. i just dont know how a person can transform herself so fast. i just didnt know what to say when she did that. i was speechless.

guess there's all kinds of people in this world tat we live in. some are friendly, some are really mean. i wonder what nonsense some people may do just to make themselves happy or satisfied.

so so shocked. sigh....

emacity
5:45 PM

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